I am amiss these days. I do not view myself completely. Few times, I glimpse reflections of me in other people. It’s in their words, acts and gestures or in the absence of these in them. I find myself disappointed.

A Different Loop...

Is where I am these days.

State of mind: Ambivalent

Tagged again:-)

Dear M!,

Thanks for tagging me and for so much more:-)))
Here are my answers...

I am: many!

I think: there is so much beauty in the world, sometimes I cannot take it in!

I know: myself like no one else does.

I want: much, again.

I have: some of the most beautiful people in my life, their kindness and thoughtfulmness reinforces my belief in life and in God.

I wish: for the moon… :( and so much more lately.

I hate: much in me. The rest don’t matter!

I miss: some things very very much!

I fear: to see the ones I love in pain. It’s killing.

I hear: more than is being said. Less than what is being spoken.

I smell: lovely. Thanks G, for the new fragrance:-) It's going to be with me for a while.

I crave: for the simple and the minimalist.

I search: all around. I am not sure if I will ever find it.

I wonder: about people and life all the damn time.

I regret: lots!

I love: easily.

I ache: the most in my heart!

I was not: born only to live by the norms. I have a mind that I can exercise.

I am not: fond of chinese anymore.

I cry: when inside is up to the brim already.

I believe: that everything dies and renews to another shape, another form, and in another time. That love and compassion is the greatest of all. I believe in The Big Bang Theory, that we all came from one source and we are all moving apart. That nothing is forever. I believe in Karma and in God.

I dance: to immerse in music, merge with my surroundings and then be one with everyone and everything. I dance to intoxicate my senses.

I sing: not even when I am alone.

I read to: Get wings. To transcend to another time, another world, another life. To get props for a new act. To tease my senses, soothe and tickle them and learn of new sensations.

I don't always: remain the same. I am in or I am out. I am high or I am low. I am up or I am down.

I fight: and I feel guilty.

I write: to let out and let go, to reconnect, to understand and reassure. Sometimes, I simply scribble.

I win: Nah, I lose… always!

I lose: myself in parts and sometimes completely.

I never: say forever, anymore.

I always: wear my hair wherever I go.

I confuse: myself the most.

I listen: poorly. I interrupt instead.

I can usually be found: in my shell or when I am out, wandering.

I am scared of: people and ghosts, life and death, attachment and then detachment.

I need: love all the damn time!

I am happy: when I see lights. Like on a busy road in the night and I am out there in the open, watching cars zoom by, their lights flashing on me. When I am in love or I am loved! When I travel to meet places, understand their history, befriend their people and start a relationship for a lifetime. When who I am doesn’t matter and the one who I am with doesn’t frikking care, when the surroundings act as a beautiful backdrop and everything else is perfectly facilitating our existence in that moment and when the world begins to feel as one.

I imagine: myself in long hair and maroon robes.

I Tag: G, where ever you are.

Epiphany

Dear G,

I dont know why but I need to tell you this that I do have faith in you.

Love,
Me.

Butterfly

Sketched this at work today. Am adding this lil juvenile-sort of a poem titled 'Butterfly' that I wrote more than 3 years ago.


















Here it goes:

She’s raw,
She's so true

She’ll wriggle,
Out of her cocoon

She’ll grow her wings,
She’ll be beautiful

She’ll flap her wings,
And break through.

This sketch and the poem take me back in time and I am reminded of all the numerous experiences that stirred me up enough to create a certain kind of chaos that eventually led/is leading to a spill-out of much that was/has been in excess and gave/is giving way for some new.

The journey forward feels beautiful now! Cause am also begining to adopt and love the new:-)

Keep smiling, keep shining...

Dear Sandy,

Thanks for writing this lil poem to pep me up.
You sure are a poet, my friend:-)))) and a funny one at that!

Dont dwell in the past,
It just wasnt meant to last!

Ur a great girl
even though
sometimes life is a bit of a twirl!

I wanna see u like u were
- like u used to be,
with tht sparkle and shine in ur eye
and to see u spread ur wings n fly.

Thankyewwwwwwwww!!!
You know, you beat me with all your affection, love and care:-)))) for all of us.

Love always,
A crazy 'Me'

Threshold of moksha!

So am told this is my last birth.

And thereafter, I shall vanish forever.

Hmm... So with this url, dint you just know it all!